Monday, March 31, 2008

Sleepin' In

Sundays!  Murphy and I go to the "church of closed eyelids."  We need to catch up on our sleep in order to have the energy to read the New York Times.  Although, Murph keeps wondering when they will carry cartoons.

Sunday we slept in.  Then we ran.  Ok, I ran with Sage while Murph waited in the car, snoozing in a patch of sun.  It takes a lot of energy to read that paper!

We love Sundays!

Murphy's day.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Snow Falling on Daffodils

As I was working at my desk on Friday, I looked out my window and imagined being a researcher in Antarctica.  If I owned a copy of Happy Feet I would have put it on, strapped the snowshoes and voila, the total effect!

The dogs slept through the storm, by the time we left the house for our late afternoon walk, while it was still  cold, the snow was gone.

I love this time of year.  The contradictions.  Snow and daffodils.  Resurrection and crashes (ok, I don't like the crashes).  Pouring rain and glorious sun.  

The pups, they stay constant.  Wild storms, they still want a long walk.  Beautiful spring day, another long walk.  If only we could be so steady, so predictable.

Murphy seems to know better weather is on the way.  After a troubled past few weeks, she is walking better, enjoying the smells, nose straight in the air.  She seems to be settling quicker.  And that's what spring is about...growth, renewal, feeling better.

Murphy's day.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Murphy in art

There is the famous Andrew Wyeth painting of a Yellow lab sleeping on a bed.  At my favorite restaurant in Seattle, the Santa Fe Cafe, the chef and owner also paints wonderful works with his Yellow lab conspicuously present in each piece.  And there is my friend Carol, working on her water colors.  She has done several pieces with Murphy, including, recently, this one, an homage to Winslow Homer.

The thing about labs is they probably are totally oblivious to their place in the art world.  Unlike the studied photographs of William Wegman and his Weimeraners, labs simply don't pose or care about being in the art world.  You won't see them in some gallery opening, carefully sipping their Cabernets while commenting astutely on the sculpture.  You might, however, see them trying to clean off the cheese plate before anyone notices, or perhaps, if it is a male lab, circling the base of the sculptures with a little leg lifting in mind!  Labs are about as unpretentious as any dog.

Having Murph memorialized in paintings or photos, though, is nice for me.  While the event in Carol's watercolor never really happened, Murphy and I certainly have had our share of adventures on rivers, with me on one side fishing, and her on the other, supervising.  Everyday, when I look at this wonderful gift, all the memories of the North Fork of the Flathead, the Gallatin, Yellowstone, Yakima, Hat Creek, Truckee, McCloud, Big Wood, Lochsa, St. Joes, Greys, Snake, Icicle Creek, and many others, will be there for me.  Always with me, yipping at my catch, staring at me, waiting for me to finish so we can get on to the important things, like ball throw.  Murphy is alive in this painting.

Murphy's day.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Dog ESP

I would never describe myself as "new age."  Sorry Shirley McLain!  But I do believe dogs sense things.  For instance, when I first moved back to Seattle I was happily settled on the couch, watching the Mariners in the play-offs (ah, yes, there was a time the Mariners fielded a competitive team) and Riley the Wheaten and Murph began to stir, in fact, both became agitated.  Then the Earth rumbled, and we were in the middle of an earthquake.  They are my weather/earthquake/mailman Early Warning System.

More importantly, the dogs sense things about me.  When I am under stress, in particular, they become more attentive.  

This morning, when I got back from my run, I got on the floor to stretch.  Murphy came over for nuzzling, then Sage scrambled in, licking, tail thumping against my arm, cuddling.  Did they know I was thinking about grave and important stuff?  The cuddling gave me energy, made me smile and even giggle (hard to giggle at 6:30 AM!).  Dog ESP.

Murphy's day.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Shouldn't Life Imitate Lab?

As I write this, it is a cold, wet, March morning.  When I woke up, rain was pounding my south facing bedroom window.  I wanted to pull the covers over my head, roll over, and tell Sage we were staying in bed.  But no, I got up, and a half hour later we were in the rain, plodding down 34th NW.

Of course, Murphy has it right.  Find a patch of sun, or in her case this morning, a warm corner of her bed, and sleep.  At least until toast and breakfast time.

Really, shouldn't life imitate lab?  There would be no wars, ok, maybe a small growl from Sage, but that would be it.  There would be kindness, empathy, more tennis balls, a shortage on bread, lots of employment in toaster factories, and to quote a cowboy song: "the sky would be sunny all day."

Murphy's day.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

On Serendipity

I know, frequently I write about nature.  It's my "job!"  But I am always amazed at my feelings when I have what I call a "nature moment."   For instance, I have been walking through a park for about a year, now, and only because of my friends Scott and Ann, have I noticed several Northern White Pines.  I supposed I focus on the dogs and birds when I walk.  Unusual for a forester.  I love the stand of trees that I walk through to get to the creek: Douglas fir, Cedar, Hemlock.  But now I am enriched, seeing even more.

Yesterday morning, while Sage and I were running, I heard what I first thought was a shorebird.  We were running along the bulkhead just north of the boat launch at Shilshole.  Then, I thought the sound was a waterfowl, although I could not place the call.  Finally we stopped because if it was a waterfowl,  it sounded like it was going underwater.  I saw two large masses just off the bulkhead.  Of course, I pictured Sea lion.  But I have never heard a Sea lion vocalization like that.  Sage cocked her head from one side to the other.  I suspect if I'd let her, she might have picked her way down around the bulkhead rocks to see if it was Max, her Flat-coated retriever mix who swims at the boat launch in the mornings.  But I kept her close.  

We watched for a few more minutes, then started our plodding.  The two things paralleled us until we turned inland.  

When I got home, I looked up Orca and gray whale seasons and vocalizations.  We saw, in the pitch black, two Orcas.   As I listened to the recordings, I recalled hearing the water coming out of the blow holes and the sound that I thought was a drowning waterfowl, was indeed, an Orca. 

It's the amazing thing about life.  When the mist parts just a little and you see the Tetons, or friends show you White Pine in Seattle, or two Orcas come close to shore at 5:30 AM.  Serendipity.

As I was listening to the whale vocalizations, Murphy came into my study and cocked her head, just like Sage.  The wild spoke to her, too.

Murphy's day.


Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Benchmarks

Yes. Easter and Daylight Savings Time came early this year (for those of us up at 5 AM, Daylight Savings is a misnomer.  It is darker now that we "sprang forward" than it was three weeks ago, so much for saving energy!).  

But the spring holidays and ritual of changing clocks is a benchmark, human benchmarks, of a new season.  

Of course, there are the birds and vegetation.  My daffodils, tulips, and buds on the cherry tree.  While I was walking the girls on Saturday, I saw a Pacific-slope Flycatcher, a sure sign the migration is "on."

I think about where Murphy was last spring.  Still wanting to do ball throw, in fact, carrying her ball with her on our longer afternoon walks.  Able to go upstairs without help.  Time causes change.  I know I fret a lot about Murphy, worry she is deteriorating quickly.  But she is still here.  And this morning, when I got onto the floor to stretch after my run, she came over, nuzzling me, letting me hug and kiss her.  Over 14 years, that has not changed.  Her affection is a benchmark, too.

Murphy's day.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Board Meeting

The meeting of Yellow Lab Enterprises should come to order.  Is there any old business?

Yes, why isn't Mommy giving us more toast?

I dunno, ask her.  Ok, any new business?

Yes, why isn't Mommy giving us more toast?

We'll appoint a committee to look into it.  Sage, you're in charge of that committee.  Any other business?  And no, we're not doing strategic planning or re-writing our mission statement.

What's our mission statement?

To sleep in Mommy's bed and raid the fridge.  Any other questions?

When will it be summer?

In a few months.  Remember, we live in the Northwest, summer comes in late July and leaves in early October.

Can I swim in rivers?

Yes.

Can I lay in the sun?

Yes.

Can I eat out of your bowl?

No.

Just trying!

Any other business?

No, I don't think so.

Ok, let's adjourn to the sun in the back yard.  This was hard work.

Murphy's day.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Routine and rhythms

We are "creatures of habit."  On weekdays, if Murphy's toast is not ready by 8:30 AM she begins to circle from my study to the kitchen to the bottom of the stairs back to the kitchen, staring at me, nosing at my lap.  Ahem, ahem, Mommy.   Sage comes downstairs around 5:25 AM, ready to be let out in back, then waiting, patiently, while I get ready to run.  And sometime around 4 PM, they usually begin to stir, knowing a walk will be arranged shortly.  Sage leaps into the van whenever she sees anything happen that remotely suggests a trip.  She knows luggage.

I enjoy those routines and rhythms.  It's as if in this crazy, random motion world, there are events which are certain, guaranteed, known.  Yet, even in the geography of routine, there are surprises (although Murph doesn't want any surprises when it comes to her toast).  Seeing the Pileated woodpecker fly from snag to snag yesterday on our walk through the Boeing Creek watershed.  The time Sage and I encountered a coyote on the stairs to Golden Gardens.  The sudden chill in the morning air now that spring is here.  

Being organized by labs is an adventure.  But it also is like French painters who had to master classic forms before they could paint Impressionist paintings.  We are totally form driven, but within that routine, we absorb total chaos!  On our late afternoon walks Sage meets up with other pups and goes nuts romping through the creek and woods.  Murph and I share quiet moments as I hand feed her dog food on top her toast (I kid you not).

Many lab breeders seem to use some form of interview before you're allowed to take a puppy.  I can understand that.  Wanting to make sure you're ready and responsible for being owned by such a marvelous creature.  They talk a lot about routine, making sure the puppy is on a schedule.  We are a well oiled machine.  I told both Murph and Sage when I first saw them I will take care of you as best as I can for the rest of your life.  And they, I suspect, made the same promise back to me.  We enjoy our rhythms and routines.  It is how we care for each other.

Murphy's day.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Little Miss Sunshine

Spring.  Of course, Seattle welcomes it with a brisk cold wind, ominous dark clouds, and weather forecasts that sound like winter.  But, I noticed a neighbors bright yellow Forsythia and tulips are beginning to pop up in my garden.

For the past few days, as the weather turned from sunny and warm to this cold, Murph began to have a pronounced limp.  Even giving her the full dose of her arthritis medicine doesn't seem to be helping.  I turn on the furnace full bore, an unusual thing for me (those who know me know to bring heavy sweaters when they visit!).  

I worry and fret, thinking, no, knowing she is in pain.  I feel it in her.  She walks, halts, doesn't want to move, looks at me, walks a bit more.

My friend Bill said this was the hardest part of Murph's journey.  It is.  

Now, if only the sun would shine and she could find that patch.

Murphy's day.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Mornings with Sage

I have been running in the morning for 30 years now.  What began as discipline, became an addiction and is now a habit.  

My Airedale, Alex ran with me for a number of years, then I was dogless on my runs.  Riley, the Wheaten, went for one run, made it about a half mile, stopped, dug in her paws, refusing to go any further.  The Princess does not run.  

Murphy embraced running like she did every thing else.  She was at the front door long before I tied my running shoes.   When I began running with Murphy, we lived in a suburb 20 miles more or less from downtown Manhattan.  Amazingly, the area had more open space than out here.  Murphy and I ran through what was then the headquarters for Kraft Foods.  The site was a suburban office park, with emphasis on park (just up the road was the Pepsi headquarters which really is one of the most amazing outdoor sculpture parks...makes SAM's look puny).  There was a creek running through (or, in the east coast they call them brooks), a wonderful mix oak and maple forest, and foxes.  Almost every morning we saw at least one fox.  After the run, off leash of course, through the corporate park we slogged, ok I slogged, up hill through a public park.  I had Murph on leash by then, and we had to learn, together, the "no yank" command after Murphy discovered squirrels.

I can not forget the morning, our first summer running together, when I saw a Cardinal, a Blue jay, and an Oriole.  No, I didn't see any Yankee or Red Sox birds!  

After we moved to Seattle, Murphy and I continued our runs.  Instead of encountering foxes and birds, we met people.  Wonderful people.  Murph instantly knew Scott and Paula, and which pocket contained the treats.  

Murph's running days are long gone.  But Sage has taken up the work.  Five days a week we run in the neighborhood, and on the weekends we either run though a local park or challenge ourselves and run up Tiger Mountain.  Where Murph left off mooching treats off people, Sage has taken up that work with gusto.  I swear she eats more calories on our runs than she works off!  

We've started running through Golden Gardens in the morning.  It's still dark when we descend or ascend, depending on the day, the stairs from the beach.  Yesterday the moon, not quite full, was setting, casting an orange glow over the Sound.  At the beach, we can usually hear the waves, often crashing onto the beach.  Now, in early Spring, the Winter Wrens and Robins are warbling, even in the dark, reminding us that today, the Earth tilts just a little bit more and we are into the new season.

I enjoy this time with Sage, just as I loved my days of running with Murphy.  They show me things, everyday.  It goes without saying, I also relish the "sniff breaks."  Sage, unlike Murph, is more than happy to plod along with me.  And while I walk with Murphy in the "slow walk" movement, Sage indulges me in the "slow run."

We come home to Murphy, ready for a walk.  She still wants a morning routine even if it's not yanking at the leash eager to rid Rye Brook of squirrels.

Murphy's day.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Lean on me

Mornings with Murphy.  For some reason after her walk, breakfast, and toast, she spends a couple hours being anxious.  She wanders the house, from kitchen, living room, study.  If I am working at my desk, she will crawl underneath, causing me a slight panic over the 50 million computer cords I have down there.  


I suspect she is feeling some morning pain.  You know, like we all feel?  My sore right foot, the hip that has a slight hitch.  They act up in the morning, after a night of being still.  And Murphy, who is such a phenomenal athlete, maybe wondering why she just doesn't feel all that good.  Plus, there is the issue of senility.  It's hard for me to think she is anxious because of that.  But, there it is.


Years ago she somehow bruised her back, a contusion on her spine.  I got up, ready to run, and she met me on the stairs, shaking, shivering.  She was clearly scared.  Panicked, I got her to the vet early, where they kept her all day.  In the afternoon Nancy called and said it was a bruise.  The usual admonishment with labs: keep her quiet for a few days.  Yeah, right.


So now, I think her wandering, her inability to quiet down, is the same as her shivering.  She is scared that her body is changing, and she doesn't understand why.  Why it hurts to pull herself up from the bed, or that she slips from her back legs going down stairs, or that she doesn't run, or needs help going upstairs.  


Than again, she could be wandering trying to figure out how to mooch more toast.  She's smart like that.


On my list of things to do is organize all the computer cords, so when she crawls under the desk, she can lean on me and I won't panic thinking everything will come unplugged.  Anything I can do  to make her feel better.  That's my job.


Murphy's day.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Can You Find Murphy?

Quiet weekend in eastern Washington.  There are signs of Spring.  New leaves on the sage, a few buds of balsam, snow in tiny melting patches on northern facing slopes, little bits of green grass sprouting up through the straw.  

Spring means lots of work.  This weekend?  Burning rubbish.  


Sage finds the snow patches, rolling, digging, frolicking, reminding me that I didn't get her out as much this year as usual.  No long slogs up Commonweath Basin.  


Murphy, ever enchanted with Spring, follows her nose.  Parts of a deer rib left by the cougar (although, not much, which alternatively reminds me how efficient predators are and sends shivers down my spine over how thoroughly cougars ravish their prey), scents of quail and coyote, bear scat emerging from being buried by the snow.  Murphy checks it all out.  Then, she finds a place in the sun.  One eye on me, as I work, and one eye dozing off.  Ever conscious of being photogenic, this time she settled near the "honey bucket."


I am grateful knowing I will have many more weekends with Murphy, watching her, nose in the air, follow some smell.  That I will worry: what is she getting into?  Reminding me what she was like as a pup.  That she will have more days finding a patch of sun in the grass, letting the heat sooth her hips.  I sense she still enjoys days of being outside.  If only there were a toaster.


Murphy's day.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Would you want this dog in your class?

My friend Ann, a retired school teacher, said of Sage: Boy, am I glad I didn't have her as a student.


Now, really, look at this dog....


As I think about it, I realize I probably would have spent many hours in the principal's office, trying to explain Sage and just how unique she is!  So, I guess I am glad Sage is home schooled.  But that is exactly what being owned by a lab is about.  Rapscallion labs.  And that is the fun of it.  I have many gray hairs, but none of them have been caused by Murphy or Sage...ok, maybe a few...but really, their job, their 24/7 work, is to keep me young.  They meet and exceed those goals.  Just this weekend I watched Sage rollick in a patch of snow, rolling, digging, sliding.  Murphy, following her nose found enough trouble for a 14 year old lab.  They never seem to grow up!

Knowing my friend, I bet she really enjoyed having students like Sage.   


From Murphy, Sage, and Kim McDonald....Happy St. Patrick's Day!


Murphy's day.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Independent Sage

Sage and Murphy cause me to think about the "nature v. nurture" debate.  Murphy has always been a "mommy's girl."  She's enjoyed her time with me.  Frequently she will end up under my desk while I am working or nuzzling me when I read in the living room.  If she is anywhere near me, she has a paw on my foot, her head in my lap, or her back against me.  

Sage is, well, independent.  I mean, I think if she could drive and write a check, she would buy her own food and chewies.  She could figure out how to live her life completely without me.  What really prompted this line of pondering was this morning.  I walked Murphy and Sage, letting them stay off leash.  At first, Sage stayed close, but when she realized I wasn't going to leash her up, she just started trotting down the walking route.  She never looked back.  It was like she was walking to work, or something.  She was in total "business" mode.  Next thing I knew we are walking down the alley and she is heading for the yard, as if that is exactly what she is supposed to do.  All without any assistance from me.  

Thank goodness Murphy is around to make me feel wanted!

Now I thinking I may have to hide my check book and hang the car keys a little higher, just so Sage does not get the idea that she can take care of everything herself!

Murphy's day.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Family Planning

There are thoughts about a pup.  Sage needs a younger, more energetic dog around.  What will happen when it's just her?  


But then, I think about Murphy.  She requires a lot of attention,  now.  Last night, she couldn't settle down.  She got off my bed, wandered around up stairs, tried to get herself down stairs, I brought her back up stairs, she wandered, stood at the top of the staircase...finally she settled down on her big bed.  Or this morning, wandering from kitchen to living room, underneath my desk, to the back door, to the dining room, bark, bark, bark.  I hand feed her breakfast, make toast, call her name.  I can not imagine giving Murphy the attention she deserves and the time a puppy requires.  Not now.  It would mean short changing Murphy.  And the pup.


Sage has settled into Murphy's rhythms.  She spends the early morning with me, on our run, eats her breakfast, and finds time to "home school" in bed for much of the day.  The pace suits her.  I doubt a pup would distract her, but it would change the dynamic in a way that might not be good for any of us.


Someday I will bring another lab into the house.  But now, Murphy deserves my time, my love, my patience.  As she watches me dote on Murph, Sage needs to know she is valued and important.  

Family planning.


Murphy's day.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

The Simple Life

Well, it's still all the talk.  How much did he spend on what?   I realized how lucky I am living a fairly simple life.  Few complications, and certainly not spending $4,000 for...


Murphy, Sage, and I truly enjoy the simple things.  Yesterday, while on our late afternoon walk, I saw something, about 30 yards ahead on the creek.  My first thought was Great Blue Heron.  But I'd never seen one on the creek, and immediately told myself it was my eyesight.  More than likely it was a log, a branch, or even a kid.  Just in case, I asked Sage to walk with me.  We slowed down, and stayed on the trail.  Sure enough, it was a heron.  Absolutely gorgeous.  I leashed up Sage and the three of us inched closer.  But we still spooked it.  The heron pulled on its huge wings and shot, almost straight up into a hemlock branch.  It stared at us as we walked underneath.
A moment of wildness.   As I think back to the walk along the creek, I realize how much we were enjoying the walk.  It was soothing and exciting at the same time.  Later on the same walk we ran into our friends and enjoyed talking about our dogs, new "toys" for our adventures, and even gossiping about politics.


I feel for folks, like the governor of New York, who have to make their lives so complicated.  And in the process, hurt folks around them.  It really is too bad that he could not find joy in the creek, the heron, the dogs, the sunlight, running into friends.


 A simple life.

Murphy's day.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Love

Well, the news is certainly interesting.  The governor of New York is owned by a Soft Coated Wheaten terrier.  It's probably looking at him with those brown eyes wondering why there is so much tension in the house.  It's a good thing the politicians don't expect their dogs to stand at the podiums with them!


Murphy, as with most labs, knows a thing or two about unconditional love.  Those big brown eyes always watching, waiting for a pat, an ear scratch, a kind word.  Recently, she started crawling under my desk, laying down (as I panic about all the computer cords), and putting her muzzle on my lap.  We work together well.  


If only the world was ruled by labs.  Newspaper headlines would be blissfully boring!


Murphy's day.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Ten Essentials

While running this morning, in the rain, of course, I thought about the necessity of having towels.  To be owned by a lab, you have to have a lot of towels.  Both Murphy and Sage enjoy having their faces rubbed when they come back from being outside in the rain.  And labs are mud magnets.  Not that I am a fussy about house cleaning, but  at least the first few pounds of mud should be left on the back porch and not the living room floor!
From thinking about towels, I started inventorying what a lab needs.  What are the lab ten essentials?  
  • towels
  • food dish
  • chew treats
  • stuff toy (soon to be disemboweled)
  • leash (in case of law enforcement)
  • bread for toast
  • tennis balls
  • plastic bags
  • car keys for trips to snow, more mud, rivers, fields, hiking trails where leash is not required
  • love
 Of course, queen or king size human bed is also a necessity.
But really, I think Murphy and Sage live quite simply and elegantly.  They certainly give more than they want.  Towels, however, truly are essential.

Murphy's day.

Monday, March 10, 2008

Sunday at Home with Murphy and Sage

Sunday.  Usually we are out.  Fishing, skiing, hiking.  But today, home pulled at me.  Trimming the cherry tree.  Finding a new desk chair.  Cleaning.  

Murphy and Sage hung out.  Sage, always helpful, took cherry twigs and chewed.  My parents came over, and my mother worried that Murphy was not outside.  She said later: I'm just so used to her running out to great me. But soon, all the noise and hubbub called, and she stood at the back porch, bark, bark, announcing her presence.  She lumbered down and supervised the thinning.  It felt like how Sunday at home is meant to be.


Late in the afternoon we walked around the neighborhood.  As I s l o w l y  w a l k e d through Sunset Hill Park, a woman stared at Murphy.  She then said: What a beautiful dog.  Yes.  Thank you.


We turned the corner, running into our friend Molly The Chow and Mariam.  Murphy nuzzled both chow and human friend.  Sunday at home.


Murphy's day.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Everyday is Christmas

There are millions of amazing things Murphy does.  One of my favorites is on Christmas.  She has her own sock, which of course is filled to the brim with stuff.  It used to be two cans of tennis balls would make her happy, but now it's chewies, treats, and maybe stuffed toy (that Sage eventually steals).  This year, as presents were brought in and hidden in my study closet, she would go back there and bark.  Finally I had to hide the presents behind closed doors in the linen closet!


She knows which sock is hers.  This started a couple of years ago.  She got up on Christmas morning and would go straight to the sock.  It's amazing.


This afternoon we were out in back.  She chased the tennis ball for a few minutes, then wanted "short game."  The sun was out, Sage was trying to be as annoying as possible, stealing the balls, running off, then taunting Murphy with her loot.  We were all enjoying an afternoon together.


It is Christmas everyday with Murphy.  She knows, I think, who loves her, who is caring for her, and that whatever present she wants, she gets.


Murphy's day.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Change

I have been thinking a lot about change, recently.  How I go through life thinking everything is the same then all of a sudden I realize some things are different.  Like I am older and my body doesn't move the way it used to.  Or how flooding completely altered the watershed I walk the "girls."  Change.  

Sometimes the changes are sudden, like the flood, but more often change happens subtly, nuanced.  It becomes part of my being.

There are days now, when I can not focus a picture of Murphy being young.  I have to rummage through pictures, old photos of her tearing up the backyard, swimming in the Yakima, or running ahead on a trail.  Our slow, deliberate ways of being now define us. 

Sudden change, like the flooding, is certainly dramatic.  But the slowly evolving change allows time to adjust, to reconfigure, to accept.  

Murphy's day.

Friday, March 7, 2008

Courage

There is a lot written and said about courage.  You know, the challenging the frontier kind of courage, or battlefield stuff, or facing horrible disease.  Yesterday, I realized Murphy is showing me, in subtle ways, what courage really is all about.


If it is true that dogs are 7 years older for every calendar year, Murphy is old by any standard.  She must be in greater pain than she lets me know.  And I know she is in pain.  They way she concentrates going down stairs.  Or barks for help to walk up.  The pause before she tentatively puts a paw in a cold stream.  Her struggle to even get up out of bed.  


But she does it.  She walks into the stream, hops down stairs, pulls her hind legs up, and gets out of bed even if there is no treat waiting for her.  


Every day she goes with me on a walk.  Often it is through a small stand of Douglas fir, down a steep hill, through a cold creek, up and over several logs, and yes, crawling underneath.  Each day I notice her struggle becomes slightly harder.  And each day she still does it.


Courage.  With Murphy it is linked to her heart.  And it connects my heart to hers.


Murphy's day.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Promise

Sometimes it just hits me.  Like this morning, I was sitting at my desk, writing, and Murphy came over, nuzzled me.  I stroked the top of her head.  And I thought:  I don't have an infinite amount of days left doing just this.  These quiet moments with Murphy.  Or the walks.  Or the ball throws.  

It seems cliched to talk about time.  That it was merely a few minutes ago she was a puppy.  Or how when she was young it seemed like we would play ball or run in the mornings for the rest of our lives.  And that our lives were linked, forever.  

I realize it much more frequently now.  That Murphy is finite.  It is my job to keep shining light on the greatness of our time together.  Suppress my frustration when she can't seem to settle down while I am trying to work, to find reservoirs of understanding with her anxiety.  It is my work.

I made this promise, fourteen years ago, that I would care for her.  That I would make sure she had the best life.  She never said anything.  Labs don't have to make promises for ways of being that are inherent to them.  She gives me her all.  

I stroke her head.  Tell her I love her.  Savor the moment.

Murphy's day

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Murphy for President, Part II

While taking the girls for our afternoon walk, I listened to NPR.  John McCain was talking about "beginning the process to begin to the selection process of deciding who he would select for a vice-presidential candidate."  Wow,  the whole circus of deciding nominees these days makes the cigar-smoke-back-room deals seem efficient!  Or at least more cost effective!

Murphy, always ready to make a quick decision, wanted me to announce who her vice-presidential candidate will be.  I know this is a surprise, but it's Sage!

Younger, more vibrant, hip, appealing to the "YouTube, FaceBook" crowd, Sage can entertain the masses with her "three legged dog" trick.  Plus she is independent, not beholden to the toast or cheese lobby, much less to Murphy.  

Analysts will comment on the homogenous ticket, two Yellow Labs, but really, can Murphy give the country anything less than perfection (although she still questions whether her sister is perfect, but we are doing are best to conceal those concerns from the press).  

Sage has a few positions that will certainly appeal to younger voters.  All stuffed toys must have their stuffing removed to be really cool.  There is nothing wrong with laying around in bed all day.  "No" is not a word in her vocabulary.

While Murphy has not been attracting adoring crowds to her rallies, she believes naming her running mate will add momentum to her grassroots campaign.  Or it will at least add more spots on the grass.

Murphy's day.

Monday, March 3, 2008

In Like a Lion

I don't know why I am surprised.  It's almost always like this.  The first few days of March taunt with spring, then, and of course it happens right in the middle of my morning run, it gets cold, the wind picks up, and rain.  

Time to hunker back down, turn the heat on, and realize spring is a few more weeks away.  

Murphy has already been in and out of the house several times this morning, as if to double, then triple check, that it is not sunny and warm outside.  She is finally getting ready to settle down for a nap.

March is roaring in like a lion.

Murphy's day.

Oblivious

There was a New Yorker cartoon that I used to have above my desk.  A man is talking at a dog and the cartoon balloon over the dog's head says: blah blah blah blah Murphy blah blah blah.
It must be the same thing in real life.  I turn on the news.  The dogs have a bed positioned right in front of the television and except for loud bangs when I watch cops and robbers movies or during the Westminster Dog Show, the pups never stir.  The TV is mere background noise.  They are not concerned about super-delegates, car bombings, sub-prime mortgage meltdowns, genocide in Darfur, congestion, or even which child-star is checking into rehab.  The labs are worrid, however, about grass-fed beef, the price of wheat as it impacts toast, and whether gasoline becomes too costly for daily trips to the park.  


Seriously, it must be nice to be oblivious to everything we humans think is oh-so important.  Labs have stress.  Fireworks, thunder, car backfiring, any time I rent Best in Show, but daily, their lives are oblivious to everything we fret and worry about.


Maybe Murphy could go on Oprah and teach us about relaxation?  Murphy's ten steps for being oblivious!


Murphy's day.

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Did ya' see that fish?

It begins with the Fly Fishing Show in early February.  Then the endless catalogs.  Finally, the magazines.  They whisper, then taunt, that the season is changing, and it's becoming time to think about fly fishing.

One of the reasons I love to fish is it is time outside with the dogs.  Murphy has become (become being the key word here) the perfect fly fishing dog.  Now, she finds a sunny spot on the bank, or if it is hot, underneath shade, and sleeps until I come for her.  I know she can hear my whoops and shouts of glee, or my frustrated mutterings when I tangle lines, loose a fish, or fly to an unexpected shrub in the back cast.  In her sleep she gauges where I am along the river.  If she can't hear me, she usually wakes and barks, knowing I will call for her.  But before the "becoming," she was focused on the adventure of being on a river.  There were sticks to retrieve, funky smells to roll in, and best of all, me to frustrate.  It never failed I would have fish-on and she would be dropping a stick at my feet.


Sage, on the other hand, is a great fly fishing dog.  Maybe it's in the name.  Knowing she is named after a Pacific Northwest fly rod manufacturer.  Somehow it doesn't offend her to be named after something prosaic.  She's taken to fly fishing just like my 4 weight Sage rod.  She spends an enormous amount of time doing her entomology experiments.  From digging at nymphs, to chasing caddis flies, she loves the bugs.  Then she will explore the riparian areas, looking, of course, for something smelly.  Don't ask me about the time we drove home from the upper Yakima with dead salmon smell in the car.  Only when she is bored will she swim out to find me, circle around my legs, then head back to shore.  


Fly fishing is easy enough that I think Murphy can continue until she no longer wants to ride in the car.  There is nothing better than a spot in the sun, the smells of the pines, a cool drink of water from a fast flowing stream.  It is still important time together, where the end of the day we can both sit at the car, eat slices of cheese, and dream of the next time, of catching the one that got away.


Murphy's day.

Dogs of Hope

I have a horrible cold.  It lingers.  But this morning, while walking the dogs, I saw daffodils in the local park, and as I write this, my neighbor's lawn is being mowed.   Spring is on it's way!

While it will be a few more weeks before the balsam appears in eastern Washington, the signs of spring symbolize hope.  

A much bandied-about word these days.  Hope.  Frankly, there have been many times in my life when I have realized I haven't felt it at all.  Hopeless.  And to hear it so overused these days essentially makes a powerful emotion banal.  

Hope may come when there is light on the horizon, when you realize that there is something other than the constant sorrow and sadness you feel.  While I do not personally believe anyone can "give" you hope, I do believe those who love you can share visions of hope.  

The thing about being owned by dogs is that they are communicators of hope.  They see the best in every day.  If it's gray and raining, well, there are puddles to walk through.  Snow?  No problem, it's fun to romp around.  The early days of spring?  Well, that is heaven for a lab.  The smells, chasing bugs, the fresh grass, the back door open all day.  Doesn't get any better.  

Murphy and Sage are the dogs of hope.

Murphy's day.